so you went..
never hated myself this way before.
such a shame.
who am i?
what am i?
why am i doing things to make ppl feel better and felt worst myself?
fcuking shit.
i've lost myself.
always standing firm.
yetnow, even if i see myself, i can no longer catch it.
these lips have told a single lie
a dark thing i cannot deny
and, how strange, i can't even remember why.
i guess it was a selfish thing
nothing but a foolish whim
when i needed only to protect myself.
countless lies encircled me
none of them would set me free
and i lost the will to fight for freedom myself
at a loss, i gave up...
my eyes turned to the sky
it was beautiful
the sight came to remind
me of you, and recall
how you used to walk
facing ahead and not looking back
how i wish my steps were firm like that..
even still i ran away
fled from all the fear and pain
hid myself away from this reality
i told myself if i just wait
i'll be my own ideal someday
though it's so far from this present me.
after such excuses i
truly came to realise
the only thing that i can do is just to live
in th present, in th now..
tell me that this voice
has reached you and you heard
and deep within your heart
i pray it rings out clear
following the way
you led your life i look to your back
as the guidepost to how i should live.
someday, one of us might bid goodbyes
just anyone of us.
tired of those crazy loves,
tired of doing silly things.
tired of seeing tears flowing down all th time.
tired of those quarrels.
tired of those unreasonable fights.
tired of oneself.
i'll stay as long as i can.
i promise, to try.
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