wenlingg

2009-05-03T13:57:00.002+08:00

finally.
i managed to let go.
finally,
everything ended here.

it has been hard on me.
i just cant put it down.
it's always so hard to bid goodbye.
but i've done so.
no regrets.
((:

much loves, laven-kisses.

goodbye.

2009-04-12T21:54:00.001+08:00

i just wanna hide.

i need to go somewhere..

2009-04-09T03:13:00.007+08:00

totally got no idea where and how to start with.

okays, i've finally gotten a new phone.
F480- what i've been aiming at!
& i got it at a really good price. $18!
did porting from starhub to singtel. ((:
& finally like finally i get to have a 3G simcard. haha.
cus i wanna VCall with my baby. :D

gonna start school next monday le.
so, i'm alr trying to switch back alr.
cut my nails to real short length.
yet to trim my hair. lol.

& had 3days2nights CTB at pasir ris.
wasn't that perfect.
travelled down to th east & met barb at pasir ris.
went to buy our BBQ stuff.
headed down to th chalet to check in.
th fcuking bastardds & bitches just refuse to let us check in without th Union card.
& i have to trouble wh's aunt to fax th card over.
& still show us th fcuking attitude.
din even mention we MUST bring th card down in order to check in.
not gonna book chalet at pasir ris ANYMORE! gosh.

then we had our BBQ.
food's great.
i wanna be thickskin & say th chickenwings i brought are nice!
cus it's my mum's recipe! :D:D
& th satay from BBQ wholesale is damn JUICY!

but very disappointed in their ketupat.
eileen joined us after her work.
& great fun playing th drinking game! woooo~
i love to see nel being so thirsty~ sry cy. haaahaaa!
& eileen's so good at those really lame games but it does keep us entertained. :D

ps/ sorry if i've posted your buang pictures. :x

Just love me! cus you might not know who's falling for you even you're at your buangest look. :D

this cake is baked by LIMJIAYAN! :D

it's nice, really.

they are enjoying it. :D

my baby, our laoda. ((:

mary de malio. :D

chinyee in her Garfield pajamas, she left it at th chalet. :X

He saw a smiling tortoise. Nelson Ho.

th baker. LIMJIAYAN.((:th swindler who claimed to be gamblingking. ERIC KHOO.th mini mouse, barb..& her big goldfish, eileen. :Dth crazy couple. -_-"

Second day.
jy, eric, barb & eil went to www.
me, baby, cy, nel & mary stayed in th chalet.
planned to watch movie.
but ended up, our eyes got stuck to th TV programmes. lol.
then me and baby had dinner at fish&co. express.
th rest had it at th foodcourt there.

sorry girls & guys.
i messed up th second night.

hmmm..
this isn't a really good holiday for me.
been crying alot. straight 3 days?
just, lost control of myself perhaps.
but i always know what's coming for me.. just that i don't know how to handle it well..
& ended up blaming myself for everything that happened.

babygirl, i just wanna be simple.
i just need things to be simple.
just to be with you.
i need nothing more, other than you.
but i want you to feel happy & at ease when you're with me.
i just wanna be th best, for you..
iloveyou.

2009-03-28T23:32:00.005+08:00

a week passed.
totally into holiday mood!
or should i say, i always am? :D :D

been to malaysia & stayed over at gf's bro place.
went to sing k at there.
damn cheap can!
thou it's only 3hours.
but it only cost 65RM for 5 pax.
& consist of a drink & a lunch each.

then also been to eat stingray, kangkong, fried babycrabs, fried sotong!
damn NICE!
gonna have it again tml.
haha. yes, tml..
going in to malaysia to get sambal chilli for our CTB chalet.

then went shopping at city square also.
their clothes not very cheap.
but went to their watson, & they're having sales.
& we bought kinda alot of things. haha.
got 2 liquid foundation of 2shades.
a mascara.
hand sanitizer.
cotton pads.
& quite a few more, which i couldn't remember.
haha.

then these few days, been spending some time at mary's place slacking.
haha.
& also went for th marie france free trial.
not bad, but i think our ite standards, are better. really. :x
shall not blog about it.

it's jj's concert today!
& ya, i'm home.
希望他的演唱會玩得開心!!

& gonna go for KeepSecret @ Cineleisure tml!
haha. it's JJ party!
then i'll make my trip to MALAYSIA again! :D
& i'll be back with pictures of this bday boy, JJ!

2009-03-21T11:22:00.006+08:00

well, to summarise th whole of last week.
sadly to say that, i only attended school for a pathetic 1 day of 3hours.
lol.

monday, never go.
tuesday, planned to not go.
wednesday, went.
thursday, sore throat, din go.
friday, overslept.

haha.
you must be saying, "win liao lo!"

wednesday, our 18th..
had lesson till 1pm+
had lunch in school with baby, meiting& minmin.
then headed home.

we had PIZZAHUT for dinner..

had our fav drumlets! lol.
2 regular pizza.
damn full! both of us were like really bloated grannies in th house.

then also on that very day evening, we made our way back to my place..
we saw this below my block.

to think that there're actually ppl camping under HDBblocks?

then still got like place th slippers somewhere else where it looked like th entrance?
lol.
okok. enough of these nonsense.

gonna be heading to JP for my FREETRIAL @ MarieFanceBodyline.
lol.
baby played a game online, then stand a chance to win $300 slimming whatevershyt.
then she use my name to register. -__-"
then th person called to ask if i played that game then ask me go down do freetrial first.
lol.
so, i dragged baby along for th freetrial too! :x

anyway, gotta be heading to malaysia tml with baby.
going for her bro's stingray. LOL.
then stayed over at her bro's place.
& i cant wait to go sing k with MALIOOoooo~

gtg.
byebye earthlinggs~

ps/ i have a reallly great & trustable friend in school. even thou i din go to school, even thou i din reply her sms or answer her call, she'd still be really very nice to update me th happenings in school. thanks minmin. (:
that very day, i din reply ur sms, cus i'm very sick due to th pizza hut. lol.
then i took med & slept th whole day. :X sorry.

80th

2009-03-16T14:49:00.009+08:00

sunday.
went for breakfast at mac with mum and gurl.
then acc mum to body contours at raffles.
i went supreme court with my pretttaayy girlfriend.

stayed for an hour plus i guess.
intend to just stay and wait for time to pass while waiting for mum to finish her body massage.
but she finished earlier than expected, so we just stayed on to explore.
mum went back herself.
kinda bad, hurh?

anyway, let pictures speaks..
or visit my girlfriend's blog~ she's more HIGH about these than me. :x

one of th chambers.
ard 15mins for 3 cases.
fast yeah?

actually why we went there.
it's should be all becus of who pushed humpty down. haha.

but in th end, we din go for th enactment. cus long queue, then long intervals. :((

then there's this UFO on top. & wow! beautiful scenes of th sgriverrr~

then there's this stereotype corners. lol.

who says need to bow? see.. i din bow also nothing wrong.
cus i'm not in th courtroom. :Xx

not a good day to end with.

but i'm glad, we're still here. (:

2009-03-16T11:37:00.002+08:00

"我不要讓你有機會喘氣"

guilty as charged.

2009-03-15T00:08:00.005+08:00

th pot calling th kettle black.

guilty as charged. :D

not a nice week.

all your clever lil tricks just to cover all your dirty traces of your kissmarks?

it goes to show how much you love me, how much you cared uh?

perhaps a real apology & your sincerity could help?

cus i've been so awefully painted black.

always get your facts right before you thought I was holding a knife.
still kinda upset over what happened, thou i said it's okay..

not trying to make things worse,

but i just need a lil effort from you to bring back my innocence. (:

planned to go COURT today. but ended up. it's getting a lil late.

so we roamed around at JP,
then wanted to go IMM to killtime.

but, while waiting for th shuttlebus to IMM, we killed alot of time alr.

so we din go IMM, just took shuttlebus to Jurong East.

saw hamham today.

it's getting real weak.

& i'm worried sick!

3 of its legs are like crippled.

one of th eyes din seems to open.

& it din move much, din eat much.

lifespan for a hamster is it really 2years?

now i brought it back to my hse to look after from weihou's place.

just thinking if i could do a lil more for it..

gonna bring it to th vet tml, i guess.

& bringing mum to bodycontours tml for her bamboo massage. :D:D

then i hope she'd be nice to buy some clothes or cosmetics for meeeee!

i miss th fondue @eHub! :D

2009-03-09T14:26:00.002+08:00

i wanna have a child, our baby girl, with you..

presented our EFC proj.
& i must say it's finally. lol.

next coming up, the very next 1/2hour.
i'm gonna have my FTY practical test.
make-up. & i swear it's killing me.
i have totally no idea who will be my model.
fcuking afraid of choosing the wrong foundation.

anyway, wish me luck.
all i can say. lol.

& on thurs, FTY theory.
more or less, i've completed my revision.
just a lil bit more to go.
& vacation is welcoming me alr.
:D

2009-03-05T00:48:00.002+08:00

still, tired.
thou i have my plenty of rest and sleep during the weekend, monday and tuesday.
lol.
i'm still struggling.

appeared cheerful, attentive in class and super hyper after lesson.
just wanna keep myself going on.

pulling myself from those EFC project, tests, revisions...
i need more time to myself.
to revise, with baby beside me.

i realised, i hate myself.
after what you said carelessly..
i shouldn't had fall too deep.

2009-02-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

hey all!
i wanna pukee~!

byes`

2009-02-23T23:08:00.005+08:00

okays.

i hear.. FINALLY UPDATE LE..
lol.
hmm..

went for spa tour today.
DAMN FRUITFUL LA!

went to HELIO ASIA @ Orchard Paragon.
very spacious and super impressed by their facilities.
& i like their uniform
very comfortable.
3/4 white long sleeves top with long white skirt. :D
din take much picture thou cus th embience there's kinda dark. haha.

then to THE RETREAT @ Changi Village Hotel.
very cosy place.
& you'll amazed by th pictures you'll see.
i was soooo praying hard,
i wasn't in sg.
lol.
cus it really dont seems to be in singapore.

JAAACUUUUZIIII SEA VIEWWW!!!!

then we headed back to school for our lessons. Had FTY eyebrow shaping assessment.

& my lovely girl, meiting. (:

2009-02-16T23:17:00.002+08:00

definitely not in the best of mood today.
totally unsure of what's wrong with me.
could be th irritating haze that's mess with my mood.

could be monday blues.
could be some lil faulty moments.
a lil hiccups here and there.
that adds on to my fcuking mood&attitude.

just fcuking pissed off for th whole day.
only manage to make myself better not talking to anyone and
stop those sms-es from coming in.
it just irritate me very easily.
i'm sorry baby.
i have yet apologise for all these.
but i don't wish to start th topic which could make me break into tears,
once again, i am sorry baby.

it's like th 7thweek of school alr.
i've learnt facial cleansing.
full manicure.
& now,
in th process..
eyebrow shaping & foot massage. (:
i'm still struggling a lil here and there.
still kinda reluctant to wake up early in th morning and travel to th east for lesson.
hwaiting! :D

somehow i just wish weekends could be just tomorrow.

vday's great for me. (:
i hope it's th same for all out there.

& i have lessons tml at 11am.
so i think i better be off to bed now thou baby's still beside me doing her prog.
goodnight earthlings.

much loves!

2009-02-03T15:50:00.002+08:00

in school's lab now.
that's when i really find time to post.
lol.

alright.
caitous:
wenling's available probably everyday after 6pm?
lol.
Wednesday ends school at 4pm
Thursday ends school at 4.30pm
Friday ends school at 6pm! :((

what a sad sad friday.
ends at 6pm.

shall blog at home if i'm not tired.
lol.

imissmygurls!

2009-01-31T11:33:00.005+08:00

woootts!

finally got my JJ concert ticket on my hands alr!

lol.

since like nov2008 till now.

mary don't worry. i haven forget about it. (:

CNY hasnt been really happening for me this year.
but i'm glad i have laopo with me. ((:

alright.

super overdued pictures.

my days at college east. :D

AMANDA

our youngest meimei.

AIN

our lovely lady.

MEITING

their ERJIE.

XANTHUS

my wifey woman.

muahahahaa~

off to kbox with my girls. :D

2009-01-21T11:45:00.002+08:00

super sorry for th previous post. lol.
it started and ended just like that.

been feeling SICK these days.
did not attend school for days alr.
& spent close to $50 seeing doctors.

got better today, but I think i better rest at home.
if not go school, or even stepping out of my house for more than an hour, my sickness is going to come back.

cant afford to miss lesson, but
i really feel super terrible coughing and the on&off fever.

big thanks to laopo. :)
lucky i din fell sick on th 18th. lol.

okays, i gotta get some rest. :)

thanks chinyee. :D

2009-01-18T14:40:00.001+08:00

to all earthlings:

wenling is not MIA or dead.
she's just too busy from school
& close to deadness from travelling 5days a week.

2009-01-13T00:45:00.002+08:00

alright, school started for a week alr.

been super busy.
probably studying..
but for me, i guess is busy travelling from west to east and then east to west daily.
lol.

shall post pics with my new clique when all of us got our prettay uniform! :D

goooo beauticians!
gooooo therapin! :x

2009-01-04T12:02:00.003+08:00

"he walked passed with a bunch of grapes"

i wonder if he's gonna mix th drink out of it himself. :x

still in th midst of considering if i wanna update this blog of mine.

many things happened during th last few moments of 2008 & th first few moments of 2009.

29dec'o8

th day before we set off to genting.

my grandma passed away.

went down to th funeral,

it just pains me to see her not moving.

on th same day,

i recieved a good news.

I've got into Nitec in Beauty Therapy @ Simei ITE.

it must be grandma looking after me.

When there's gain, there's lost.

30dec'o8 - 1jan'o9

spend our countdown in th crowds tgt with beautiful fireworks.

it's specially beautiful when we spent it together, babe.

2jan'o9

went to th funeral.

went to th temple.

went through cremation.

'dont wish to recall'

&i'm starting school tml too.

awww...

should i look forward to it?

Happy New Year to all.

2008-12-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

I just had a really FRUITFUL day.
went shopping at bugis.
& really met with alot alot of hilarious happenings.

On th train to bugis, there's this guy,
he tried to talk to a newly wedded couple with a baby.
telling em abt anything you can really talk about on earth.
& also to a blangadashie asking if he's from blangadash & if he knows that th seat that he's sitting on is a piority seat as there's a old man standing by th door.
so, end up, he gave up his seat.

next, like what we're expecting but also hoping it doesn't happen.
he came towards us(i'm with my laopo),
(pointing to a beer advertisement on th train)
asked, "how do you say 勇气 in english?"
laopo,"courage?"
then he goes on asking some other questions...
blahblahblahhh..

then he said to my laopo about how couragous and daring she is to dress like that..
then say he disagree about this kinda of r/s...
but also say believe in what you should do...
then say my laopo is really pretty and handsome.
LOL
then he shook out hands and said he's uncle ronnie and went off approaching others.

then to bugis..
went to alot of shops,
alot of clothes we looked at and interested in, happens to cost $26.
then back to Jp for dinner @ oldtown.
th table we sat at is also 26.
zzZzzZZz
kinda scary.

back to gekpoh to get Jollyshandy
i overheard this guy asking th cashier where to get graperedwine "葡萄红酒"
then he came to where we were(th alcoholic drinks section)
asked where is th graperedwine, he din address who he's asking so we ignored him and continue to look for our Jollyshandy.
then we saw him walked away, then he walked pass us with what,
do you know?
shall keep in suspense to see if who's really reading my blog as i dont update often.

LOL.

gonna acc laopo's bro around sg tmr,

then also get our hair trimmed,

& get my psp from wh.

& off to genting on tues morning when all's asleep.

2008-12-18T00:12:00.002+08:00

.181208.

th last 18th of 2008.

i have you here with me.

loving you as always, baby..

2008-12-17T23:46:00.004+08:00

how much i love you, i could never express them all in words.
how much i need you, you'll never understand.
how important you are to me, you'll never know..

cus i don't even believe it myself..

always, never been able to express myself well.
it leads to misunderstandings all th time.
& i cant explain myself well too..
it just cant help.

forgive me.

i apologise for my wrong-doings.
i shouldnt be doing things that i don't like to happen to me too.
i felt ashamed.
but my startingpoint is not what you think.
I'm just being side-tracked and felt kinda negative at that point of time when we lost contact for that period of time.
never meant to outcast you.

girl.
i did not offend you, did i?
why do this to me?
all i want, is just making things as simple as possible since WE are complicated alr.
all i want, is loving her as my girlfriend.
all i am doing is th rights she gave me as her girlfriend.
that's all i asked for.
i'm just..
i'm just loving her that way WE agreed.

i shouldn't be doing these here, but this i couldnt find any other ways to express myself..

2008-11-28T12:28:00.007+08:00

We're back from laopo's bro's wedding a few days back.
(:

everything went smoothly.
quite tiring having to run here and there, waking up early in th morning.

but,

we had a great time there too! (:

picturess..

from th left:

laopo's mum, laopo's dasao, laopo's gor, my laopo.

lol.

I think she's really adorable. :D

& i love her ~~fake~~ tattoo her makeup artist gave her that night.
lol.

not much picture of th both of us, cus we're th photographer/videographer the whole time. :D

picture taken : before setting off to malaysia.

picture taken : after wedding dinner

我老婆好美！*drools* :x

& pictures from jj's event at kunion on th 2oth. (:

DOROTHY! she rocks la!:D

YuJia! th girl who travelled from chinatosg then sgtokorea, to study.

IMPRESSIVE! :D super envious!

xiaolinggu

2008-11-17T12:31:00.006+08:00

went to clementi quite some time last week to repair my boots.
& we went to WestCoastPlaza formerly known as GinzaPlaza.
big change.
most of th shops werenot ready for business yet, but xmas decorations were up alr. lol.
& there's this "ring"..

i really find it look like donut. :x
and it's soooo colourful!

i love th reindeers!
i love th blue xmas tree! (:

I've got my dress for my laopo's bro's wedding.
my choices're all silvery & greys. :x
i love th two dresses above! but it's $100 over

compared to th ones i saw at bugis only less than $70.

somemore still need to alter for th above ones. :x

there are quite a number of choices. but in th end i bought..

:D

& i've got my first Signatured Charles&Keith heels!
Super inlove with it!
ps, no pics. lol.

15November

went to make payment for JJ's concert tix.
Yes, JJ concert!
next year!
i'm super happy can?!
it's on 28March'o9, th day after his bday!
muahaahhahaa~
新加坡的歌迷真的很幸福！！

so we went RafflesShoppingCentre.
& we saw this piece of public art displayed on th building.

Very interesting.
& impressive!
th artist, Montoya, Isaac,
used red and blue tints to bring out another picture from th same picture. :D
impressive!

16November
Totally out of mind.
we had our home. (:

any idea what we're doing? :D

sweetly struggling in LOVE <3

2008-11-14T11:18:00.002+08:00

who knows how i'm feeling right now?

i could no longer put em into words.

i wish,

i wish..

i could just disappear like this.

2008-11-12T01:04:00.001+08:00

let me be th reason for every of your laughters.

let me be th reason for why you’re still here.
let me be th reason for why your heart beats.

let me be th reason why you teared.
let me be th reason why you’re angry.
let me be th reason why you’re frowning.
let me be th reason for all your unhappiness and happiness.

Just let me be, yours.

stay beside me hold my hands
I’ll always be true.
let this moment last forever or freeze
baby you are the sweetest magical dream

Turn around and look at me
I’m crying inside.
could you hold me in your arms?
Assure me
that you’ll be
the right one for me

2008-11-11T12:49:00.001+08:00

only you..

2008-11-10T15:22:00.002+08:00

to all earthlings:

wenling is busy and still coping well with her life.
lol.

should i say busy?
or...

been out to town these days.
trying on gowns and dresses.
been fruitful, a lil tired..
but life has been beautiful and exciting with you beside me. (:

off to facial with laopo later.
& prays that everything goes smoothly this week, if not at least for today? :x

update with pictures soon. ((:

my life goes on with you..

2008-11-08T12:05:00.002+08:00

here it goes..

many keep asking, so here is it.

Classic Manicure $10
Classic Pedicure $18
Express Manicure $5
Express Pedicure $8
Personalized Nail Design +$5

Packages available. (:

Laven.Kisses

2008-11-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

YEAH!

I GOT TICKETS TO JJ PARTY 3!!!

:D:D:D:D:D

2008-11-04T12:17:00.005+08:00

so you went..

never hated myself this way before.
such a shame.
who am i?
what am i?
why am i doing things to make ppl feel better and felt worst myself?
fcuking shit.

i've lost myself.
always standing firm.
yetnow, even if i see myself, i can no longer catch it.

these lips have told a single lie
a dark thing i cannot deny
and, how strange, i can't even remember why.
i guess it was a selfish thing
nothing but a foolish whim
when i needed only to protect myself.

countless lies encircled me
none of them would set me free
and i lost the will to fight for freedom myself
at a loss, i gave up...

my eyes turned to the sky
it was beautiful
the sight came to remind
me of you, and recall
how you used to walk
facing ahead and not looking back
how i wish my steps were firm like that..

even still i ran away
fled from all the fear and pain
hid myself away from this reality
i told myself if i just wait
i'll be my own ideal someday
though it's so far from this present me.
after such excuses i
truly came to realise
the only thing that i can do is just to live
in th present, in th now..

tell me that this voice
has reached you and you heard
and deep within your heart
i pray it rings out clear
following the way
you led your life i look to your back
as the guidepost to how i should live.

someday, one of us might bid goodbyes
just anyone of us.
tired of those crazy loves,
tired of doing silly things.
tired of seeing tears flowing down all th time.
tired of those quarrels.
tired of those unreasonable fights.
tired of oneself.
i'll stay as long as i can.
i promise, to try.

2008-11-01T13:23:00.004+08:00

51.

din go for work for both days.
made my way down to clementi to meet em at sumohse.
then th 4of us dont have th feel for work. lol
and ytd, they finished their run,
and says, tired..
lol
so ended up, this week din earn any.
actually i dun feel like doing th sales thingy, really. :x

Lric, Lelelia and Laopo came over my place for th two days.
total madness, i say.
& had stingray @ boonlay for dinner ytd.
Great man!
i'm loving KangKong. lol.

and now! i'm craving badly for cakes.
any cake.
& fish mahattan
&XINGramen
& steamboat
&th omelette at bugis fj
& NYDC.

LOL..
actually th list will go on and on..
cus i'm hungry, now. hahaha..

November's gonna be busy too.
CTB meet up tml. :D
yahoooo~!

2008-10-30T00:42:00.002+08:00

" “Does he look like JJ the clown?”
My family and friends back in Singapore sent me an article recently. The article questioned my new image and suggested it being “a colorful riot of clashing plaid patterns” and looking “more like a clown than an artiste”.If it had been an article from elsewhere, I would not have been that hurt and disappointed. But it came from my homeland… "

-cited from http://www.jjfusion.com/show.php?id=397

I'm just so, "amazed" by singapore's media.
wow!
such a great job!
*slaps them*

my heartaches when i saw JJ's latest entry.
i know how he felt.
and i must say, it's terrible.
with so much trust and love for singapore, his hometown.
& they just tore his heart, just like that.
a stupid sentence, could just pull an artiste's confidence down, th drain.

oh, wtf.

i'm always so proud of JJ.
be it i'm just a lil fan, or a crazy fan over him..
i'm just very supportive of everything that he does.
& even now, if he's attached, or even married..
i go all th way for him!
he's still but a human.
just that he got his special powers and ability to touch th hearts of people with his composition of songs.
I'M PROUD OF HIM.
but i really dont understand WHY singapore media has to say such crude comments.
be it th truth or not, but JJ's a SINGAPOREAN, and why is SINGAPORE MEDIA making such crude comment to hurt such a talented SINGAPOREAN.
I laughed hard at th sentence.

oh, wtf.

2008-10-29T19:55:00.004+08:00

it's been a week, exactly. :D

nothing much happened actually.

hahas.

yeah, and finally i get to watch my HSM3!

first time catching this in cinema.

HSM3 is hilarious.

whereas for HSM1 &2 is more on romance, those touching love storyplot. (:

and yeah,

i've got a fruitful monday. :D

3customers brought by chinyee.

thanks.

i had a great experience and really know what and where i should improve.

good money too. lol.

& i did my colour chart too!
and quite a few nail designs.
originally laven.kisses :D

had dinner at bugis ytd.
foodjunction if i'm not wrong. :DD

th omelette we had is super nice and worth th price.
wanna go back once more.

i cant wait for november to come!
wooohhooooo~

2008-10-22T12:50:00.008+08:00

音樂的潮流 + 生活的態度 = JJ LOOK

I've got my JJ Sixology album ytd!
I got it from CD Rama and it's much cheaper than MJ. :x
Aniticipated alot, but a lil disappointment.
perhaps I pin too high expectations ba. haha
but I seriously think he can do better. (:

now, th photos i promised ytd. (:

18.10.o8 @ ECP

I'm th seaQueen!~ *laugghs*

th beautiful beach i mentioned earlier. (:
& i found seashells! :D

then i saw babycrabs! can you spot it? haha.

& watersnails! we gave it a secure LOVEly home.

& bidded goodbye with a serious ILOVEYOU. ((:

i dont wanna walk on grass so they push me while i ride. :D:D

so sweett~

*smiling sweetly upon reading ferynn's tag.*

I MISS YOU TOO~~~!!!!

2008-10-21T13:02:00.002+08:00

my long waited HSM3 is out, very very sooon!
and Butterfly Lovers, Nights in Rodanthe is out alr!

But what is keeping me waiting that could make me go mad
would be nothing much more simpler,
JJ LIN album.
Sixology.
& i'm still waiting.
roarrrr!~

currently, working on my nail business.
with lots of planning and preparations.
and my room is still in a mess.
big mess i say.

went ECP last sat.
cycled all th way to changi there.
and we settled down on a beautiful beach for a moment.
i have no pictures now.
but there're baby crabs. :D
had dinner at th food center.
stingray & kangkong.
but i still prefer boonlay's.

shall update again tonight with pictures, hopefully. :x

"i know you're th one, i always know.. "

2008-10-14T18:14:00.002+08:00

th lonely looh will be there to be lonely with th lonely you. :)

my looh.

2008-10-14T13:13:00.001+08:00

"The meaning of happiness is whatever you want it to be."

"Embrace what you gain, and accept what you have lost."

found something on th net, and it does make me feel much better after reading it. (:
but i'm not stress, just feeling that i'm carrying too much. hahaa.

A lecturer was giving a lecture to his students on stress management.
He raised a glass of water and asked the audience, "How heavy do you think this glass of water is?"

"It depends on how long you hold it."
"If I hold it for a minute, it is okay."
"If I hold it for an hour, I will have an ache in my right arm."
"If I hold it for a day, you will have to call an ambulance."
"It is the exact same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."
"If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, we will not be able to carry on, the burden becoming increasingly heavier."
"What you have to do is to put the glass down, rest for a while before holding it up again."

We have to put down the burden periodically, so that we can be refreshed and are able to carry on.
Don't carry your burdens for too long.

It'll drain you of all your energy, physically, mentally and emotionally.
When you return home from work, put the burden of work down.

Don't carry it into your home.

You can pick it up tomorrow.
And don't try to carry a burden too heavy for yourself.

Don't try to carry the weight of the world upon your shoulders.

You're not superman.

You're only human.

We all are.

2008-10-08T22:21:00.002+08:00

我是你最甜蜜的心痛。

我是你最舒服的衣服。

我是你的老婆，你的最爱。

영원히 사랑해요

2008-10-08T19:02:00.002+08:00

sadlove song is making me super emo.
tried mirotic,
but it failed.

2008-10-08T01:45:00.000+08:00

it's gonna be 17 hours.

it's gonna be tough.

i can do it. (:

2008-10-05T02:16:00.000+08:00

THEY ARE SUPER DE HOT!

2008-10-05T01:52:00.003+08:00

i love her like how she loves me. :D
still, many thanks!

had my "room warming" today. lol.
gurls came over, and "WOW". haha.
& we had canad*** pizza for dinner.
and i swear! i am not going to order pizza from canad*** anymore.
th pizza's not hot/warm.
& we couldn't really differentiate which flavour is which.
& okay la, buy 1 get 1 free lo.
that's th only reason why we got it from em.

i super love my room now!
brother, sisters and friends!
come over and play now!
LOL~

there's sooooo many many lovies i wanna watch!

Released.
CONNECTED.
THE HOUSE BUNNY.
MY BEST FRIEND'S GIRL.
VICKY CRISTINA BARCELONA.
CLOSING THE RING.
THE BLACK SWINDLER

Coming Soon.
Love Exposure
Nights in Rodanthe
Beverly Hills ChiHuaHua
Angus thongs and perfect snogging
sing to the dawn =XX
THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL
Quarantine =x
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3: SENIOR YEAR !!!!! OCT 23 :D:D

okays, i think i am really mad.
but i really wanna watch all thesee~~!
i cant wait for HSM3 to be out. roarrrr!

i am getting drowzy from th cough med. *blurs*

* i see starrs*

"we're getting closer, we're drifting further.."

2008-10-04T13:23:00.002+08:00

okays, thousands sorries.
i know the 26sept entry kept appearing on th top. lol.

my dears gave me a BIG surprise on my bday.
they brought me to sakura.
and got me watson's footspa. :D
many loves.
many thankyous!
& th 2 gurls who went kbox with me that night. :D

& a few days later, my sister's bday!
went beach then surprised her with ERICKHOO.
burst into tears of happiness.
and then a MARCHE treat with barb & eileen.
great night.
successful plan. :D

& we had steamboat at mary's place last night.
super full.
lol.

alright, shall upload th pictures when i'm free. :D

awwwww...
i wanna all CTBers to meet up. (:

2008-09-26T14:13:00.005+08:00

very very in wonder how i will be spending my bday!
lol.
i hope i can go kbox and sing till it closes down!
i hope i can go fishing at fish manhattan!
"i hope i get to celebrate my birthday with her, and only her!"
LOL.
okok, i am really going mad.

i woke up with a shout today and scares th freak out of laopo.
OIE!! TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!
LOL! hahahahhahahaha~

okay, i am really really so not anticipating for my this year bday, so i have to do this to remind myself ,

I AM THE QUEEN OF THE DAY!

muahahahahhaha~

went for SONGS OF THE SEA ytd night.

th story plot doesnt really leave a deep impression for me.

but th few minutes of water works, nice. :D

2008-09-25T18:03:00.002+08:00

changed my skin.
probably bcus my dongbang craze is back. especially after watching Mirotic MV over and over again.
so obsessed with em, esp JUNSU.
simply so addictive! aaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww~

gonna go get prepare for my dating soon.
haha.
not really dating, just that i am gg for SONGS OF THE SEA later!
been eyeing on that since donno how many centuries.

i've rearrange th funitures in my room. come over to play, girls! lol.

& now, is like 25sept,
i still cant believe it's my day tml. lol.
had not been taking notice of my own day this year.
cus I am just getting ~~older.~~
gosh, i feel that my mindset is getting more and more auntie alr.

will be back with pictures on SONGS OF THE SEA! :D

2008-09-24T16:18:00.001+08:00

gfriend not in sg. i am feeling so shyty now!
come back fast! i miss you la!

suddenly i feel like rearranging th furniture in my rooms. =x

update later. haha.

2008-09-22T01:29:00.005+08:00

we had birthday surprise for our darling maryy on sat!

stupid sakura full house.

so we had to dine at nydc.

th food there is nice.

but serving kinda small. :D

but i dont have th pics with me. shall post some other time.

now, th girls! GIRLS!

so we had movie after that, my mighty princess.
th story plot doesn't suit th promotional poster at all.
but th story, not bad. lol.

and we saw a new movie coming up next,

by eric khoo~ :D

and we had a stayover at mary's place.
went home in th noon,
and back to her place for steamboat again.
haha.

gurl, please love us! haha..

oh ya! i saw this pooh poooh!!!
very cutee!
but laopo doesn't want to get it for me. :(

& th nails colourss~

alright, some random pictures, taken in genting. :D

awww~ i miss my long hair whenever i look at these pictures. :(

I'll want to carry you for th rest of my life. :D

2008-09-20T14:14:00.003+08:00

alright,
peeps!
i think i'm gonna tell u guys something.

i really think that th roller coaster rides at genting got me crazy.

i cut short my hair.

just short hair. :D

shall not post how short is it. =x

isnt this pretty? (:

shall post more tml. off to my manicure stuff. :D:D

2008-09-19T18:11:00.012+08:00

I am back from th genting tripy!
woohooo~
great fun.
and I took th roller coaster rides!
can you believe it?
lol.
it's all for you. :D

th first day, from boon lay to genting, th bus is alright,
but th way they manage things sucks.
2 seaters tgt.
th other 2 separated.
roarrrrrrrr!
and from genting back to sg,
still th same.
shyt fivestar!
and th bus we took back from genting is th worst!
maciam like take school bus. roar!

nvm,
at least the destination is th thing i am looking forward to.
and i enjoyed my genting trip!

pictures shall say everything. :D:D:D

ps// everything is in total mess! cus there's too much pictures we took. =x
enjoyy~

my all time fav! haha.

Eric took th spaceshot!

our lionking!~

there she goes again.. pukess~ =x

2008-09-13T02:05:00.004+08:00

okays, all I can say is last Sunday’s foodchase isn’t a pleasant one to start and end with.
& th fact that we lose.
lol.

& I’ve watched WALL.E & Hana Yori Dango for this week!
WALL.E is nice, great!
For Hana Yori Dango, like what laopo said, it would be better if there is Taiwan version with Jerry in there. awww~

I am just craving so badly for Fish Manhattan on Wednesday before gg for movie.
so we went!

okays, and browsing through th pictures,
I do look like a glutton. :D

and horh, I know this is gonna be very random! but I cant take it.
I cant stand residents taking th lift as rubbish chute! ROAR!
so inconsiderate!

it’s alr 2am now.
& I cant wait for tonight to come!
cus I am leaving for genting sooonnnnn!
muahahahaaaaa~
I hope everything goes right.

psps// I have got my own home nail parlor!
credits to CHUAQINYI. :D

Now, pictures! :D

BIG BIG EYES!

& th camwhoring girls.

my pretty laopo. haha~ i think this picture is "nice" :D

2008-09-12T01:33:00.001+08:00

muahahaa~ my bluetooth device on my lappy is not working.
cant upload pictures!
so not going to blog. but i am blogging. :D

gonna go to bed,
goodnight all dearies! :)

gonna be busy tml!
huggs~

2008-09-05T22:35:00.004+08:00

"this star star doesnt plead
i give a new heart
even we fight
we cam mind we will set the world send this summer to you"

and i really had meesiam for lunch that day. :D
tadaaa~

wednesday din go work.
planned to do something but it doesn't went smoothly..
so we went for a movie after my meesiam lunch.
haha.
CYBORG SHE's nice, great.
but I din tear thou..
but I think th story is great except for th ending part which they replayed th front which i feel is redundant.
din watch WALL.e cus wanna save for next week incase there's nothing to do next week.
hahaa~

so i shall watch hanadan, wall.e, meet dave, and MAMMAMIA! next week!!

i find this movie cute, hahahah~
it reminds me of someone and her bf.
LOL.

& I had my 旺仔牛奶! again.. haha.

GREAT DAY!:D

2008-09-03T11:43:00.002+08:00

suddenly i felt so bad.
i have yet gotten my ahliang's concert dvd.
roarr!

gonna be movie marathon today!
lol.
cyborg she then WALL.e
:D:D:D

and hopefully i can have meesiam for my lunch later.
HOPEFULLY it doesn't get ~~sold out~~!

and my recent craves, 旺仔牛奶!
i simply love it. *big smile*:D

; finally finished my 命中注定我愛你.
真的太好看了! awww~ *0*

ps/ don't be so rude!

2008-09-02T15:59:00.002+08:00

awww! feeling terrible.
i am craving for meesiam during th fasting season.
i have been craving for meesiam since ytd afternoon.
terrible feeling.
i walked past all th coffeeshop i can find at my workplace here.
none sell meesiam.
so sad! :(

2008-09-01T14:56:00.002+08:00

have been feeling that god is playing a fool with me.
lol.
anyway, life just have to move on.

i am so looking forward to the foodchase on sunday!
then i shall end my work at clementi,
take a few days break then off to GENTING.
lol.

& i finally spent my TANGS voucher alr.
it's freaking headache thinking what to buy.
$60,
i spent on a perllini bag, and a swiss chocolate fondue.
kinda not worth it, i think.
i could just get my bags from my aunt, yet i got one whereelse.
and $20 on just chocolate.
suddenly i just feel like slapping myself.
shall share with my dears friends. :)

alright, off to work.
but i'm alr at my work place. lol.

update laterrrd! :D:D

2008-08-25T13:55:00.004+08:00

How tough can my life go?
lol.

have th war ended or this is just th start?
th start of our destiny, our fate?

always carefully walking and stepping on to the next step of my life.
don't wanna any mistakes.
everything i am asking for should be perfectly perfect.
but this is getting tiring.

我用我的生命爱你
不让尖锐的世界伤害你
不懂花言巧语的人
"我爱你" 往往来不及证明
我用我的生命爱你
忘记自己也毫不留情
爱一个人奋不顾身
辛苦也觉得平静

Actually I enjoy yesterday's job at suntec, TCBoy.
i admit, it's good money.

should I still go genting?

2008-08-24T00:26:00.002+08:00

i am not a good girlfriend.
我不配.

我自私
我心急
常常不考慮別人的感受, 做出自己的決定, 讓自己好過一些
太自私了.

i don't know how to love.

2008-08-23T01:06:00.002+08:00

sleeping hasn't really been a problem for me.
just that I tend to wake up earlier than how I used to.
like 2plus in th noon?
lol.
waking up should be normal, but for me, i think it's unusual.
LOL.

it's gonna be a busy month with lots of bingbangs here and there.
& th sweet beautiful efforts we're putting in to see a smile.(:
definitely looking forward to the GENTING trip with dears.

& setting up my own home manicure business.
support support, can?
friend friend price only.
be it you're girly or not, just trim and shape your nails, why not?
lol.
okay, i think i should talk about this now.

everything ended,
something started..
and th story goes on..
for this lifetime, with you.

a lil kiss on my forehead ward off my nightmares.<3

2008-08-20T02:07:00.004+08:00

I don't think I really got th habit to update my blog.

lol.

anyway, alot of things happened for the past 1 week.

which I am really unable to pen down in words.

Just hoping that everyday could just pass smoothly.

Not wanting to have anything special to happen, be it good or bad.

I just remember that we went sentosa last wed.

I LOVE YOUUUUU! :x

& th super nice stingray meal we had at boon lay. lol.

i am super looking forward to sept can?
not becus it's my birthday,
but i just feel that it's gonna be a busy and nice month!
LOL.

KISS GOODNIGHT!-_-"

alright,
gonna get some sleep soon.

ps//12 Lotus, NOT nice. :)

2008-08-09T02:27:00.002+08:00

"兩個相愛的人, 最大的幸福是得到朋友的祝福."

friends are very important to me, so are you.
Ctb have wonderful friends which pulled me up,
and made me trust friendships.

thanks.

Everything may not seems wonderful even up till now,
but I truely feel happy for friends who're able to find true love.

2008-08-03T02:01:00.003+08:00

Alright, Jiayan's starting to nag. lol.

Cus i really got nothing to talk about except my worklife.
awww.. sounds kinda sad ya? :(

I just hope my next post would be an interesting one.
Perhaps, about national day? lol.

& people, don't watch HoneyClover if you intend to.
not really nice eh.
The only factor that attracted me could only be ZhenYuanChang. lol.

....
i know this is random,
but i came by Lia's friendster..
haha, I came to know that she's taking part in this year's NDP in th linedance segment.
together with Huizhen too.
haha. I find this really interesting.

I am starting to miss NDP'04.
I miss th stage I shared with JJ.
lol.

and I am 19 this year alr.
time really passes.
starting to really settle down and think for myself what I want myself to be.
any idea?
Can I be an air stewardess?
Can I own my own Nail salon?
Can I have my own restaurant?
Can I have my own stage and sing to all?

Can I not be just a normal office girl?
Can I not be a salesgirl?
Can I not be so weak?

What is your greatest desire for your future?

2008-07-28T15:06:00.004+08:00

muahahaha!
okays, u all know it's jinsha.
but, in th beginning i couldnt even figure out who is that. lol.
i'm lousy, okays?

and special thanks to limJIAYAN!
i feel that my blog is alive.
and it's seems to be like a lil forum. lol

OH Yes MARYYY!
it's JJ~!
u know JJ?
JJ LIN!
LIN LAO BAN!
WAYNE LIN!
my NO. 1 LOVES! :D:D:D:D

went to watch REDCLIFF ytd.
It's great.
but, peeps, there's no ending to it.
but I heard from my fatbitch saying there will be second part to it.
just like thdeathnote. :)
but i think it's worth watching la. lol.

dined at BBQ chicken @cineleisure before movie.
I think they adjusted their prices? lol.
& i had my faves there!

tadaaa~ Pat Bing Soo

can anybody bring me to kbox soon? *winks winkss*
p/s jy, I am looking forward to what you're gg to pass me. lol.

2008-07-25T00:25:00.003+08:00

to start off again, can anybody figure out who's this?

i must say, I have totally no life,
until HE appeared in my life again! (:

I am so glad, i went for BCH.

lol. & th trip to LongBeach @Demspey :D

are you feeling happy for me?

are you envious? LOL.

i am feeling :D:D:D:D:D!

newblogskin.

I hope this will motivate me to blog more often.

Choir's gg to Prague.

I really hope I could get into th chosen one.

It would be a total new experience to be able to go overseas representing WWSS.

& I am looking forward to Sat's meetup with my two loves.

random photos..

alrights, off to YOU'RE MY DESTINY!

smiles!

happy weekends to all.

ps/ taggies, can? i don't know who's still reading my blogg. =x (:

2008-06-16T01:27:00.002+08:00

Friday come faster!
I need this Friday!

I will chiong to Golden Mile after work this Friday!
Cus I am going GENTING!
muahahah.. I am soo excited by th thought of it.

I went shopping again.
My wallet hurts! Just got pay today, and off I went to Bugis then to Vivo to shop.
& I actually wasted $10.
I bought a black BF Shirt for $10. It looks big but I cant fit in.
Am I putting on weight or th shirt is too small for me? ROARR!
If I could try th shirt there, I wont have to waste $10. SHYT!
Anybody pity me? :(

Then I spent my money on heels, a top, a cardigan, & a belt.
I think I enjoy shopping.
I am not kidding.
Cus I used to dislike shopping alot.
I dont like to waste time trying out clothes, I dont like to be in a crowd.
I have got no idea what changed me!

anyway, today's father's day.
But it just felt like any other normal day.
cus,
should we celebrate? (:

2008-05-21T16:20:00.002+08:00

惡作局2吻 is super nice!
這裡發現愛 is also super nice!
but SKY OF LOVE is even nicer. xD

Been watching lots of dramas and movies lately.
& my bio-clock is all messed up!

Right now, I just wanna do whatever I want to do.
I don't care what future has for me.
I just wanna live happily.
Cus nobody knows what might hit th Earth someday.
I have made up my choice & that's it! (:

I've not been going to school again.
Deciding whether to defer or quit school.
No point for me staying at a course which I totally dread going to.
I cant afford my time on learning things which I think it has no future for me.
This is life. :(

Alrights alrights,
FRIDAY 23rd May
Choir Practice at wwss 7.30pm. (:

2008-05-07T01:31:00.002+08:00

Such a messed-up life.

Things could be so much easier, if...
but you chose not to.
I have no say.

My heart and soul will ache for you,
Every day and every night...

You're my never-ending love,
Thee love that keeps me alive...
You're thee one I'll love forever,
Although it hurts inside...

Will be back again when I feel better.

2008-05-02T01:11:00.004+08:00

Th weather is killing me!
so freaking hot!
my air-con something wrong.
When I on my air-con to th lowest, tgt with my medspeed fan..
It's totally th same temp/feeling when I off th air-con, leaving th fan on.
Th hot weather affects my air-con working condition.
Rainy days, come please.. *ohh... JUNSU, sing me "rainy days" in sg... *

Th forecast I found from National Environment Agency predicted that there will be morning showers with thunder tml. We shall see.

Went Ikea in th noon with my parents and laoda!
Haha.. I'm so inlove with soooo many things, but it's totally useless even if I buy it back home.
But there are some pretty pretty stuff I eyed on. Shall make a trip down some day again w/o my parents. If not they'll nag why waste money buy these and that. lol.

Gotten myself 8pcs of mirrors to pretty pretty my room.
2 cushions- 1black, 1 red.
photoframes.

My ma bought 1 pans and 2 flxi chopping board. LOL.

there's UT after school tml! dreadds going to school.
I still can skip my S203 module. which is tml's module. =x
k k.. I go, I go... *shakees*

So many many movies I wanna watch!!!
SuperHero Movie
Dance of th Dragon
Hansel & Gretel
Doomsday
Definitely, Maybe!!!
& perhaps,
Harold & Kumar Escape frm Guantanamo Bay
IronMan is out too!!

I am missing my gurlss! :(

2008-04-30T23:06:00.001+08:00

Somebody introduce this video when I read wwsschorus's multiply website.
It's great!

Enjoy! (:

2008-04-30T21:55:00.004+08:00

Some says I have the look of a rich girl.
Some says I look like ahlian.
Some says I look like I have a ahbeng boyf.
Some says I look very dao.
Some says I look cute.

What combination is this? *laughs*

Anyway, the definition of "ahlian" I found from wikipedia,

"a pejorative term commonly given to a certain group of young Chinese girls in SEA, especially S'pore and Malaysia. These Chinese girls, whose collective age ranges from their adolescent years to late 20s, are usually centralised in the busier and more developed cities in the region. They are regarded as bimbos, and are stereotyped as anti-intellectual, superficial, materialistic, and shallow.
Ah Lians are commonly stereotyped as having hair dyed in gaudy and bright colours, and attired in fashion mimicking hip-hop culture, although how much of this is true is debatable... Ah Bengs - Ah Lians are also thought of as being excessively flashy and show-offs."

Anyway, i just had an unpleasant dinner with my family.

Ma & Pa quarrel again. Don't know over what kind of issue.

& I got "scolded" for no reason.

We were all finishing our dinner. & left the drinks.

My sis drank icecreamsoda and still left 1/4 in th cup. Then she just place it where she's sitting which is opp my Pa.

Then I dont know why..

"Pass me th drink leh", my dad said in an pissed off tone.

KAOS! How I know he want to drink!! Fcuk!

I do having a loving family, some times.

But I don't want to live with them when I grow up.

awww! I am dreaming of th future again.

So many dreams, so little money.. How?

I dont wish to depend on a boyf or hubby.

I don't like cinderella story.

I just want to be, myself.

simply wenlingg. :D

Oh ya!

Use this. It make your skin feel smooth and easier to apply cosmetic next day as it doesn't make your skin looks dry when you put your foundation. (:

I did these a few days ago when I got totally nothing to do. I wonder why people don't tie their hair like that. It look like a tie too! (:

&tadaaa! I've got purple nails! muahhahaha.

Heading to Ikea tml! great!!! gonna have a pretty pretty room! Then I'll invite my friends over to play! (:

2008-04-29T19:30:00.001+08:00

Awww! I freaking hate MSN messenger!
It's always not working. Of 7 days in a week, only 1 time in a week I am able to chat online! roarrrr!

I am superr hungry, can?
Craving for foood! I want tomyam seafood! muahahhaa!

A great day in class! With all my funny fun-to-be classmates!
Maybe I should really go to school more often. haha.

Today's problem about genes and health.
Realise something while typing this entry.

My sis, JOEY, doesnt like to bathe! why, Why, WHY?
That's not in our family genes.
Worst, I think you'll find it disgusting..
Btw, she's in primary school, you know, P1 students like to run and sweat like hell!
Everytime she come back from school, she took off her socks,
SHE SMELL HER OWN HANDS AFTER TOUCHING THAT SOCKS!
goshhhh! *pukees*
Then she don't like to bathe some moree!
-wth-
I feel so no facee.-__-"

SavneU

2008-04-29T12:16:00.000+08:00

I dont understand why people want to walk on grass when there's pathway to walk.
I just cant stand people and more people walking on th grass which they are also fighting to live.
Okays, I am random. I admit I do walk on grass too, but I dont walk on em when there's actually a pathway made for pedestrians! ROARR!

Today's no longer a long day for me. HA!
Cancelled my PP Workshop.
Don't think I am gg for my IG meeting either. =x
Heading home after UT probably? (:

Kinda addicted to ExpressBoy. A taiwan drama quite long ago.
With Mike He in it. But I am not so into him. I just like th way he acts in every drama. He always have some factors that keeps me wanting to know what happen to him. Perhaps it's th storyplot? haha.

I dreamt, I dreamt..
I wanna be someone special.
I am self-centered. I admit. *laughs*
But this is life, who doesn't want to be special?
Maybe some who doesn't want to notice.

I wanna share what I found.
Immature love says, “I love you because I need you.” Mature love says, “I need you because I love you.”
~Erich Fromm

差一点

2008-04-28T23:02:00.000+08:00

I have been shytting th whole day. Stomach vomits!

Went for a small jog in th evening at th JW Park alone.
A simple jog that sets me thinking of loads of things.
What do I really want to do in life?

I have always been setting goals and dreaming of what I want to be, and how I want to be.. It just come out NOTHING.
I have alr started to write my "before death letter". Am I crazy?
There are alot unpredicted happenings in life. Is all stated in our fate.
Even if I should go against anything, it's also our fate to do so.
I want to do something, but I am unable to go for it.

Tml's gonna be a longggg day for me.
I have my UT, PP Workshop, In Vogue IG meeting after school.
Wkshop and IG meetin clash at the same time! Arghhh!

bedtime! (:

In lovee! sooo sweet!

2008-04-24T14:18:00.000+08:00

I am in school. Today i good good gurl. I stayed throughout!
Any prizee for me? lol.

Went for CE briefing talk just now. I am interested in joining ALOT!
lol. Kayaking, Swimming, RockClimbling, SportsClimbing! SO many many! lol.
But I feel I really dont fit in.
All i need I think I need to learn swimming first. lol.

Gonna be Friday tml! WOooooooooooots!
I cant wait for weekends to come. So I can sleep late late.
I wanna go kbox with my gurls!
Wanna have fun time, but I think it wont be fun without, you.. yes, you. (:

Nvm, I will find my fun myself. lol. zibi!

I am craving for waterchestnut drink from JP!
I love JAE'S album/EP.
But th pop version for NuoYan isnt in it. :(

Blog later, PP time! hahaaaaaaaa.

2008-04-23T00:33:00.000+08:00

I am tired.
But I cant sleep.
Can anybody help me?
Feeling so terrible being unable to forget th whole incident.

I want to solve th problem ASAP. I dont like things to drag. But, I really dont know how to start th topic. It's always so awkward when nobody wants to start th "fire".
I want things to be solve or maybe unable to solve. but, at least i wanna have a talk to clear things out. AT LEAST, we can draw a clear line whether we're friends or foe.

I just don't want to lose another friend, like you.

2008-04-22T13:56:00.001+08:00

I never go school. I am bad. lol.

Nvm, I know what I am doing.

Been playing viwawa recently. haha.

my wawa!

haha. I love th red hair. (:

today's another long day for me.

blog laterr! (:

dedicated post.

2008-04-22T01:12:00.001+08:00

Nobody understand. Only her & me.
There's really no point saying & saying, all the talkings after talkings.. things are still th same.
I am not guilty of what I did. Meeting up with a someone doesnt make any crime, right?
Only th both of us knew what was really going on within us. Do not assume what is going on.. & creating your own story.
IT'S UNFAIR!

Everybody have a fair share of uknoWho. You're somehow at th advantage that both of you are in th same school & get to talk and share almost everyday. Cant an oldlover meet up to catch things up like how they used to share & crap? If your answer is no, you're simply jealous. So dont keep finding things to pin-point that who or who did something wrong or broke th promise.

All th talkings doesn't work, cus I have been holding back and not being harsh to make my stand clear. cus I just want things to be solved peacefully.
Instead of always pushing th blame to uknoWho, try thinking yourself.. do you think you should really think through what really happen and why did it happen? It all just depends on how you look at things. I believe that if someone else were to look at this whole problem.. that someone wouldnt be behaving like you.. it's how you unfavoured th situation and th perception you're looking at.
I am not pushing th blame to you, I understand why you feel this way. But there should be some limits to it.

ps/this is not blog attacking. Just that this is where I can really get my msg across.

2008-04-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

Well, I guess today's great!
Great day with my Year1 module classmates!
They're fun to be with, with those laughters and screams simply made my day.

Kinda pissed off with ma this morning.
I left a note saying I need $25 cus I want to buy clothes.
She din give me.
I sent a sms over saying I need to buy clothes cus I very long time never buy any new clothes alr.
Is like really very long I never use her money to buy me clothes already. ROAR!
But end up, she want bank in to my bank acct. But I forget my acct no. so I have to ask someone I can trust to allow my ma to bank in. SO TROUBLESOME!
WHY CANT SHE JUST GIVE IT TO ME IN THE MORNING?! ROARRRRRRR!

I need to get a new cardigan, th red colour is fading, th black is somehow spoilt.

Anyway, somehow it seems that ytd's talk is nothing. But I am glad that CTB meet up, and understand th issues.
But understanding th issue alone isnt enough. We need to learn to make improvement. I believe we can. (:

ps/ dont think too much about me and ld alr. we're impossible, you should know. i wont eat her up. Just that even me & ld meet up is just purely meeting up and catching up, cus is like both of us really used to be really close. ld's the one I can talk to when I have problems, or things to share with. I hope you trust me and understand us. okays?
I really love youu.. (:

2008-04-21T09:46:00.000+08:00

I guess everything's settled more or less ytd? I hope so. (:

I've mentioned about my www.simplywenlingg.blogspot.com's problem already. So I am here to open a new one. (:
Will be using this skin for th moment first, wait till I'm free, I'll change a new one. haha.

Alright alright, I am in school. (:

I wanna go MG! muahahha.
Blog later.!